TOO much running and not enough revising. That’s the position I’m in at the moment.
I’ve got an exam on Tuesday, only four days away, and it’s got me worried. If the exam was on anything to do with running, I’d be fine. If there was a question on training cycles or energy systems, I would be able to answer with confidence, but there won’t be. The questions are on the nineteenth century novel. And, in all honesty, I’ve been too busy focusing on running, to really get to grips with the literature of that period.
As a result, I’ve been feeling a bit disappointed in myself. I set high standards. Whatever I do, I always give it my all. Then even if things go wrong, I can hold my head high and say I tried. Unfortunately, this year has been a challenge, a juggling act of managing competing priorities. I’ve not been able to throw myself into the world of the nineteenth century as much as I would have liked.
I’ve tried to do everything (master’s degree in writing, degree in literature, horses, running). The danger is that when you do so much there’s a good possibility that you’ll do them less well. I knew this when I signed up to everything, but I had to do them all. There was no way I could sacrifice literature for running, or running for literature. I love them both. I made the decision that I’d have to do the best I could in the time I had.
So rather than feeling disappointed that I’ve not done enough, I’m going to flip it around, and recognise how far I’ve come. I’m also going to remind myself that literature and running are my hobbies. I do them for fun, not to put pressure on myself. After a hard training session there is nothing I like more than curling up with a good book (with a bar of chocolate). During a run when I’m in the zone, I’ll start thinking about an essay question or a book. Rather than seeing my hobbies as competing against each other, I think they work well together.
Anyway, this is all becoming a bit deep for early on a Friday morning. What I’m trying to say is that I shouldn’t see my hobbies as conflicting priorities. Running helps my revision. That makes me feel better! So, without pondering this any more, I’m going to get my trainers on and go for a revision run.